Hello everyone! I know it's been really long since I've updated but you should know the reason if you have read the title. No?

Well, exams are here! No, well, in two weeks or so. But it's crucial to start early!

Especially in my important year.

However, I can't seem to get myself to focus and study.

I bet it happens to every student. I mean who likes exams?

But I know I will love myself in the end if I work hard this year to get the best results possible, and to try my hardest.

And I guess my motivation will also be that girls who are smart are more attractive.

Don't believe me? Look at this!

How gorgeous is that?

And I'm already thinking of all the plans I will make and have already made for my vacation at the end of the year.

So everyone - no, students - you know what to do! Just work hard for those perfect As on your report card and when you see them, you'll be thanking yourself in the end.

Hello everyone! It's been a heck of a long week so I was unable to update as frequently as I wanted to.

I don't know. Some days when I'm just so tired of everything that I just want to raise my hands and surrender to the world.

"To hell with it all!"

But I know I can't, because life goes on anyway.

But I'm just really tired of everything.

I just don't know why I'm so tired anymore.

And soon...

Waiting for what? I think it's whatever I've been wishing for. A secret I can't tell, but I've just been waiting for something to come.

What do I do about it then? Rain.

Don't you think it's so beautiful? Dripping so delicately everywhere, making those pitter-patter sounds.

Whenever I see rain, I feel like dancing in it. To feel it on my skin, to smile at what Mother Nature gifts is but we always take for granted.

To just enjoy the world that we pass by unknowingly in our hectic daily lives.

So I suggest, if anyone is having a bad day and it rains...

Enjoy your day by dancing in the rain.

Your parents may get mad at you, but as long as you feel that it has brightened your day somewhat while dancing - the rain has spread its love to you.

Like it does to me.

Hello everyone!

Today's question would be 'Do You Believe In Soulmates?'

"Now what is that," you may ask.

And then you would say something on the lines of it not being real, which really, I disagree.

Why?

Because I believe in it.

But I find it so difficult. It's like finding a needle in a haystack. How would you even know who the fellow is? Or where, exactly?

He might as well be dead and you may sill spend you life searching for the person.

However, I still hope that one day I will find him. And I will get the feeling that people get when they find their soulmates.

And I will try to befriend the person, talking and realising we're so much alike.

And then, I may just make a funny joke like:

Really?

No silly, I'm joking! I've never found a guy that has ever believed in love or something like soulmates. Or maybe it's the guys around me?

They're just shallow and that is why it makes it difficult for me to speak to them on a spiritual term. Actually, almost everyone I know is like this.

I sure do hope to find someone that I can share everything one day. It's so romantic and perfect.

But in all my years of living on this Earth, I've realised that nothing in life is perfect.

Most likely finding Mr Soulmate here would be a loooong journey.

I just hope it's rewarding in the end.

And I hope that each and every one of us will find our soulmate.

As they say, "nothing is like finding your other half."

Anyway!

Tonight's song: If I'm Gonna Fall In Love by A Rocket To The Moon.

They are THE best group ever. I just love Nick Santino's voice. So soothing and sweet. ☺

Good night and sweet dreams!

Did I ever mention that I love cats, especially kittens? They must be the most adorable animals in the world!

I mean, seriously, who wouldn't love them? They're just so...!

Have you died of their cuteness? No? Well, good! I haven't died yet, but I know I will, once I grow up and have my own ones. My friends have always kid that I would one day have my own zoo, with my own animals in there just for myself.

I really hope it is true! ☺

Anyway, I forgot to mention that H and I were able to walk near each other yesterday on the way home since we left school at the same time and our friends walked at the same speed.

For some strange reason, I thought that he purposely waited for me to come out before he left school. (Since he could have left about almost an hour ago.)

Really hope so! I was also having this panic attack on where my feelings for him were going yesterday. All the 'what ifs' started to run through my mind and I hated it.

Phweebs tried to calm me down and tell me that everything was fine, and all I needed was to get closer to him and be more friendly, but I know I couldn't.

I'm just cowardly like that, but I realised that I really like him. A lot. I look forward to 'accidentally' bumping into him in the hallways or the eye contact that we make constantly.

I just really like him, alright!

Yeah...

Anyway, good night sweethearts, and sweet dreams!

Tonight's song: Smile by Uncle Kracker

Hello! I've been very interested in looking at hairstyles lately, especially when I saw a lady with beautifully ombred hair the other day and on the inside I was like:

"Oh my Gosh, did you see that? It was beautiful!"

And yes, I do have some conversations running through in my head sometimes. With myself... That's kinda strange, but *shrug shrug*, it's me I guess.

So a few shots of beautiful hairstyles that I have found recently!

And some in pictorial form~~

Sigh... Some people just have the most angelic of hair.

Although I love mine as well, I would have loved it if it had been thicker.

You know us humans, we are forever unsatisfied with ourselves.

Not that I can do anything about that, but for now, I'll love my hair like it is. ☺

Which brings me to the topic of love, again.... (For the umpteenth time, and there is still more to come...)

This guy, this really tall and handsome and smart and cool guy I have a crush on, is driving me nuts. Let's take him as H.

I keep feeling that H is way out of my league, though my friends tell me that that's not the case at all, that he probably likes me back, with all the eye thing that we've been going through the past, I don't know... six months?!

Hell, it might even be a year. (Mind my language!)

But I'm just too shy to do anything and he's... I think he's shy too. We've only talked very briefly but everytime we talk, my friends would come over and be like "What was that all about?", with those annoying eyebrow things that they do.

I would then reply with "I don't know, nothing?"

But I knew there was something. When we were talking and I had to raise my head to talk to him while we walked side-by-side, and we were both smiling, and it just felt right.

Like the feeling just came to me at that moment when he smiled down at me, his eyes all the while on me.

If I dare say, I might have felt like the prettiest girl on Earth at that moment.

Now, we rarely talk, but we still make eyes at each other. I can't seem to meet his eyes, and I think he is taking it the wrong way.

And I'm so cowardly that I won't do anything about it. My friends would push me to him, but I will not say anything at all, and just turn away. I know I kinda hurt him, and it's all my fault.

Being raised in an Asian family, we were taught that girls should always be the ones getting wooed. Being a conservative type of person, I've always believed that.

And I fear the fall, when we finally get together and we break up and ruin our friendship just because I could not keep my feelings out of the way.

And even worse, what if I confessed and he rejected me, saying he never liked me? That I've made everything up in my head, because I was too much of a dense idiot to know that.

Sometimes, I just wished I never had a crush on him. I wouldn't be so messed up in my head now.

But I never regretted crushing on him. He was the one that brought meaning to going to school everyday, even if it was just to get a glance of him, even when I'm down with a fever. Just one glance makes everything feel right.

And I really hope this isn't an infatuation, because if it is, I think I never want to fall in love. It would overwhelm me so much that I would not be able to carry on with my life.

I don't want to be dependent on a guy so much that my life revolves around him. No guy deserves that much, my life is my own after all.

My dreams; they all revolve around him - us.

That we are holding hands, hugging, kissing and on sweet dates that I know will most likely never come true.

I think this is a phase of a girl's life? If every girl has to go through this like me, I'd rather they don't but hope they do as well.

I think this has helped me grow, as a person and especially as a lady.

But all I hope now is that we can at least still stay friends, even as we leave school this year.

And I hope that after this year, my heart will stop pounding so hard when I see him and that I will stop blushing (which causes me to turn away). I also hope that I will meet someone new and forget about him, only to remember him as a nice part of my life.

And when I think about it all over again, I realised that none of those hopes are true. And that I only have one.

I hope that he will like me too.

I'm still confused now, even after all this while. But I really hope I can resolve this soon.

After ranting out so much, I feel a little relieved, but I'm still so messed up inside. And all my resolutions of trying to forget him and all will just disappear tomorrow when I see him. (It's a neverending, killer cycle)

Alright, I'll stop! No one likes to hear depressed words anyway, but everyone has those moments.

On to some sweet couple pictures that I'm so jealous of, but happy for them too.

Tonight's song: All About Us by He Is We

I just have the urge to slow dance with someone now. It always happens whenever I think of him...

I wonder if he thinks of me too...

Goodnight lovelies!

First up!

And...

That's right, my favourite month of the year is here! Spring, the season of bright pop colours and love. ☺

I've been sick recently (not sure why I've not been recovering) but all I can think about are the pretty floral outfits that will be out soon!

Today, I'd like to share my inspirations for my spring outfits!

That was quite a lot, but I really love the floral prints on those outfits...

Sigh, I wish that when I save those pictures in my album, they would automatically appear in my closet...

That's what I hope. My this April be great. Since my birthday falls in this month, I'm wishing for extra luck this year, especially with major exams coming up.

Today's song: Mona Lisa (When She's Sad) by Jay Loftus

This song is so sweet and cute ☺

Now on to my spring goals!

Fitness!

Why, you say?

So how will I attempt to do it?

I'll be working hard this month! Hopefully, I'll be able to at least make myself as fit as I possibly can!

Then it's beach time!

Hope all you girls will try to exercise too!

Not only will you look great, you will be a lot fitter as well. And healthier.

Who wouldn't want that? Just get your lazy ass (mine as well) off the couch and get fit!

Good luck, you will be glad you did it.

Just a total pictorial post today!

I've had such bad luck with him today that I think I'll never be able to be in love and all. Life sucks. At least love is a great motivation... (No, I'm lying. There are better things in the world for everyone, but this is how I feel now.)

Hahas, alright! Goodnight! I shall continue my picture spamming tomorrow.

Tonight's song: Wanted by Hunter Hayes.

I swear, I would melt if a guy ever serenades me.